Things I just realized I got from being raised in an unstable household:


  • Not being able to sleep with the curtains closed
  • Not being able to wear noise-cancelling headphones
  • Having to know who is in the house at all times (checking whose shoes are there when I come home, looking for lights, etc.)
  • Being hyper aware of how much noise I make at any time
  • Being hyper aware of everyone else’s emotions
  • If someone is angry or anxious i have to be able to fix it, or I have to leave immediately
  • Knowing the sound of angry walking
  • If I’m sick/hungry/tired I instinctively hide it
  • My feelings are Never Important

It’s been 4 years since I moved out. I have my own apartment with roommates who I love who have never hurt me and I still. live. like. this.